What could happen? I mean honestly...

Already laughing before I start to type... don't know if that is a good sign or just my nerves re-surfacing again. What I do know is that it has been a LONG time since I last blogged. And come to find out a few people I don't know commented on a couple of my posts in the time I've been away. I know - really you're excited by only three... YES! THREE whole people I don't know said they liked my blog. Truly, I want to thank those individuals, you made my day!

I have been thinking about writing again for a few weeks with a new purpose, new desire, and ever changing view. The past two years have been, for lack of a better word, miraculous. And that is not one ounce of my sometimes "over dramatic" self. As you may have read two years ago I started a new journey, stepped out of my comfort zone, and saw a light at the end of a tunnel I had been stuck in for a few years. Let me back up and say, I appreciated that tunnel. Tunnels are not a bad thing; they shelter you when you are not able to withstand the exposure of what comes from being out in the sun, wind, and storms on your own. Thanks dad for being that tunnel. But I think he would agree that seeing the light and believing you are strong enough to leave the tunnel makes one smile. And not a cheesy smile, but a calm, grateful, lift of the corners of one's mouth. 

So a year passed, I was getting my engines warm and ready to move. The light was pretty much right in my face as 2013 started. Then what seemed to be a very obvious year ahead was switched for a very uncertain chain of events with twists, ups, downs, moments of fast-paced charging, and others where I felt I was at a stand still. The miraculous-ness - I'm still "on track." That track has a new path, a whole new scenery, and I am giving up trying to push it down a track that I think I want and let each day bring the simple joys of laughter, music, and hope. Ok... I'm done with the train/life metaphor. I was getting myself lost in trying to find one more way to connect the two (*chuckle*). It's not that I couldn't... just exhausted trying and who cares!

Energy re-focused - 

So 2013, THANK YOU! You brought with you a new home, with neighbors who immediately opened their arms to my family and our crazy life. I promise ward family, I didn't plan any of this and to those who served me with dinners, conversations, prayers, and even a phone call - you played a huge role in my miraculous year. I am anticipating many spiritual experiences with you in the upcoming years and friendships/memories to take with us forever!

2013, you also brought us a new opportunity for my husband. SDJH watch out! He is my loyal, quiet but bold hero who speaks the language of love. Was that too much info... sorry. Pero el es muy amable y tiene mucho amor por los jovenes, especialmente los que quiren saber como hablar su idioma favorita. Tambien, gracias por darle la oportunidad a enseñar. El esta muy feliz - y tambien nuestra familia.

Finally - 2013 you brought our most cherished miracle. Miss Ayva Milan. A determined daughter of God, who in spite of an IUD, a torn placenta, and entering the world at only 27wks & 2lbs  lifts the hearts of all she comes in contact with - especially our family. She is doing well and brought a light we didn't know we wanted let alone needed. She is my constant companion right now and reminds me (OK - taking it back to the train) that although I might not know all the turns and hills coming up my Savior and Father in Heaven do. They have a sense of humor with those switches, which I adore, and also know me better than anyone. 

I am stronger, happier, and more at peace because of you 2013. Thank you! And to answer my question posed in the title, "What could happen?" I take this time to look back at 2013 to remember how rocky it started and how pleasantly it ended. Why is this important? Well - 2014 - do you want to tell them or should I? Because you're in shock still I will - 2014 started off with a bang of a new hill to climb and a twist in the road that starts another adventure. My fabulous job that has allowed me some needed luxuries of being home and income has passed away... moment of silence please....  .....   .....   .....  (*tear drop*sniff*snarl*sigh*eyes focused*)  

MOVING ON - yes honestly, a lot can happen in a year or two. So, because negativity never brought anything positive in my life, I'm filling my space with a positive burst of happiness for what I have been given. If you would like to drink from my cup - well I should warn you - it's Diet Coke now. I know, I fell off the "no pop" wagon. But, I have hope I'll be able to some day get back on - just need a taste of childhood right now.  Thanks for reading and (*glasses clink*) here's to 2013, 2014, and letting things happen with a smile.